Dear Diary, (that shouldn't be posted on the internet)
The work these days has been quite harrowing. I'm stuck on a tutorial essay that makes stuff all sense. But some good news, I have found some houses to view for next week. I really do hope we find a house next week it's getting to the point where we need to put our minds to rest about the house issue next year. I don't why recently but I've lost alot of inspiration to do things like Youtube and the blog abit. It's down to tiredness, its amazing how tiredness can put you off alot of things. I'm trying to fight it but ever since I started GCSEs I've been working so hard and not really had a proper break. Yesterday the fencing team had photos. I decided to join in but thought I wasn't going to make it because of a practical for Organic Chemistry. It was nice seeing the team again but after two months of not playing it was alittle awkward. I've been battling with health, work and also personal problems for awhile now and its hard to juggle everything.
Also last week I got upset with Manticore. I started a cosplay group for CLAMP and have posted alot to try to give people ideas about cosplay and enable the members to feel comfortable. But so far it has been quite good but alot of people aren't posting much. One member asked if they could post photos on the group page which got me worried because I was thinking maybe people thought only the admins could post but the truth is everyone can post what they like. Anyway, Manticore posted on my wall one evening saying to me that I was copying him with his group Roundup and that basically I needed to curb my enthusiasm. Usually as a person, I keep it to myself because I don't like being rude and hurting people's feelings. But I thought Manticore was being rude and little bit up himself to post that on my wall. People seem to think that because I'm easygoing or nice that I just take crap.
Why did I get so upset by it? People lately have been getting quicker to me. Possibly because I'm no longer patient with people like I used to be. But seriously. If Manticore says one more snide comment or post I will not put up with it. Curb the enthusiasm? Look who's talking. Every bloody day its Final Fantasy project this, or my life is going down the drain this. Such a drama queen. The nerve of some people. I'm my own boss, nobody has the right to command me as though I'm a pawn on a chessboard.
And tonight everyone is busy yet again, either with Love, parties or seeing other friends. I will get through this. And when I do, I hope I get alittle more stronger.
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