Sacrifices and new changes

After alot of thinking and deliberation. I've decided not to go to October Convention. I know it sounds crazy but trust me I came to this decision after alot of thinking. I've been thinking after awhile that I need to travel. I've been wanting to do it for so many years but kept putting cosplay first. The MCM Expo is so much fun and I've met so many people I will never forget. I will be returning to cosplay someday but for now I'm calling quits until I've done some travelling. For now the only plan I have is to cosplay the Shadow Card for October 2012 for CLAMP Cosplay Group. Other than that, I'm not going to any convention events. Also I need to focus on my secret project. For a while I've been thinking about going to New York and Tokyo and that's next on my list.

Adieu

TokyoDreamer9

Diary Entry #7~ Apparently I'm a mushy pea :B

Dear Diary (that shouldn't be posted on the internet),
I recently got phoned by my stepmother. However, I don't consider her a stepmother but another mummy and friend. I have in total up to six mums according to my friend Kaerith. I have my biological mum who's my number 1 friend in the whole wide world, then my auntie mum who's not my auntie but my best friend and mummy, then Kaerith is my mum, (how that works when she's two months younger than me is beyond me), then Kaerith's mum is my mummy and my step-mum is also a mummy and recently Maddie became my mummy. Wow, that's alot of mums looking after me. Anyway, she phoned to check how I was doing as well as mum #1. I feel so loved these days. I should be asleep but I haven't blogged in ages and had the need to do so now. We still haven't found a house but I still haven't given up. Today I got phoned my bio papa. It was nice to finally talk after awhile. It's so easy for time to fly before you realize you haven't seen or talked to anyone. Swept away with time with all those deadlines, practicals, friend film nights, eating cake at 2am in the morning you forget about all the loved ones at home. So it was nice to catch up.

Yesterday was a bad night, I stayed up till 5am doing coursework. Organic Chemistry was fine but Genetics was a huge problem. Had no idea how to do the plasmid map configuration. Google, Moodle, ask a friend, ask my noggin, read the question, have a flashback of what the demonstrater said in the practical resulted in EPIC FAIL. Apart from that, bought lots of rubbish from Tescos with Steph and Sarah and ate half a cake of a birthday cake even though as we could say in Rihanna's words, its not even our birthday. The CLAMP COSPLAY GROUP UK group on Facebook has taken off quite well, we've gotten nearly 20 members and its looking promising for the future. Manticore has been cheeky lately but I think things are getting better and I've also been good with my money.

Last Thursday was Maddie's Bday for her 20th and I think she had a smashing good time. Kaerith came and met Sarah properly and the two got on like a house on fire. Maddie had a lovely time with her boyfriend and Yagernation gave me the giggles along with Katie and a poor Sarah the sore arm due to a drunk Abbey.

Life is looking up at the moment, even though we still don't have a house for next year. I have a good feeling about it at the moment.
Goodnight
TokyoDreamer9

Diary Entry #6~ Mission Impossible [The quest for a house continues]

Dear Diary, (that shouldn't be posted on the internet)
The work these days has been quite harrowing. I'm stuck on a tutorial essay that makes stuff all sense. But some good news, I have found some houses to view for next week. I really do hope we find a house next week it's getting to the point where we need to put our minds to rest about the house issue next year. I don't why recently but I've lost alot of inspiration to do things like Youtube and the blog abit. It's down to tiredness, its amazing how tiredness can put you off alot of things. I'm trying to fight it but ever since I started GCSEs I've been working so hard and not really had a proper break. Yesterday the fencing team had photos. I decided to join in but thought I wasn't going to make it because of a practical for Organic Chemistry. It was nice seeing the team again but after two months of not playing it was alittle awkward. I've been battling with health, work and also personal problems for awhile now and its hard to juggle everything.

Also last week I got upset with Manticore. I started a cosplay group for CLAMP and have posted alot to try to give people ideas about cosplay and enable the members to feel comfortable. But so far it has been quite good but alot of people aren't posting much. One member asked if they could post photos on the group page which got me worried because I was thinking maybe people thought only the admins could post but the truth is everyone can post what they like. Anyway, Manticore posted on my wall one evening saying to me that I was copying him with his group Roundup and that basically I needed to curb my enthusiasm. Usually as a person, I keep it to myself because I don't like being rude and hurting people's feelings. But I thought Manticore was being rude and little bit up himself to post that on my wall. People seem to think that because I'm easygoing or nice that I just take crap.

Why did I get so upset by it? People lately have been getting quicker to me. Possibly because I'm no longer patient with people like I used to be. But seriously. If Manticore says one more snide comment or post I will not put up with it. Curb the enthusiasm? Look who's talking. Every bloody day its Final Fantasy project this, or my life is going down the drain this. Such a drama queen. The nerve of some people. I'm my own boss, nobody has the right to command me as though I'm a pawn on a chessboard.

And tonight everyone is busy yet again, either with Love, parties or seeing other friends. I will get through this. And when I do, I hope I get alittle more stronger.