Dear Diary (that shouldn't be posted on the internet),
I recently got phoned by my stepmother. However, I don't consider her a stepmother but another mummy and friend. I have in total up to six mums according to my friend Kaerith. I have my biological mum who's my number 1 friend in the whole wide world, then my auntie mum who's not my auntie but my best friend and mummy, then Kaerith is my mum, (how that works when she's two months younger than me is beyond me), then Kaerith's mum is my mummy and my step-mum is also a mummy and recently Maddie became my mummy. Wow, that's alot of mums looking after me. Anyway, she phoned to check how I was doing as well as mum #1. I feel so loved these days. I should be asleep but I haven't blogged in ages and had the need to do so now. We still haven't found a house but I still haven't given up. Today I got phoned my bio papa. It was nice to finally talk after awhile. It's so easy for time to fly before you realize you haven't seen or talked to anyone. Swept away with time with all those deadlines, practicals, friend film nights, eating cake at 2am in the morning you forget about all the loved ones at home. So it was nice to catch up.
Yesterday was a bad night, I stayed up till 5am doing coursework. Organic Chemistry was fine but Genetics was a huge problem. Had no idea how to do the plasmid map configuration. Google, Moodle, ask a friend, ask my noggin, read the question, have a flashback of what the demonstrater said in the practical resulted in EPIC FAIL. Apart from that, bought lots of rubbish from Tescos with Steph and Sarah and ate half a cake of a birthday cake even though as we could say in Rihanna's words, its not even our birthday. The CLAMP COSPLAY GROUP UK group on Facebook has taken off quite well, we've gotten nearly 20 members and its looking promising for the future. Manticore has been cheeky lately but I think things are getting better and I've also been good with my money.
Last Thursday was Maddie's Bday for her 20th and I think she had a smashing good time. Kaerith came and met Sarah properly and the two got on like a house on fire. Maddie had a lovely time with her boyfriend and Yagernation gave me the giggles along with Katie and a poor Sarah the sore arm due to a drunk Abbey.
Life is looking up at the moment, even though we still don't have a house for next year. I have a good feeling about it at the moment.
Goodnight
TokyoDreamer9
Saturday, 17 March 2012
Saturday, 3 March 2012
TokyoDreamer9? Why choose that name?
I chose the name TokyoDreamer9 for many reasons. I remember signing up for some things on the internet that required a username and I thought what would be appropriate. I love Tokyo and I love Japan. My whole life and hobbies revolve around Japan whether its the culture, language, anime, manga, videogames, cosplay etc. My dream is to move there someday. And thats when I realized, I constantly dream about Tokyo making me technically a Tokyo Dreamer. And finally the number, I could have said number 1, but I don't like to call myself number 1. I feel insecure with trying to be the best. Then number 7 hit me because its usually a lucky number but the ring of seven with the rest of the name TokyoDreamer9 didn't click for me. And then the number 9. I don't know why but TokyoDreamer9 sounds right for me. The Nine clicks and that's all there is to it. I still dream about Tokyo like there's no tomorrow. I dream about visiting Tokyo Tower so badly, the trains, the stores, the people. I dream about the photo kiosks, the malls, the shrines. And the number 9 still feels special to me. As well as being the month I was born in, it resonates well with me. And finally that's why I'm called as such. There's a reason to everything, this wasn't some cliché, dolled up name, this is what I am everyday.
Yours Truly
TD9
Yours Truly
TD9
Diary Entry #6~ Mission Impossible [The quest for a house continues]
Dear Diary, (that shouldn't be posted on the internet)
The work these days has been quite harrowing. I'm stuck on a tutorial essay that makes stuff all sense. But some good news, I have found some houses to view for next week. I really do hope we find a house next week it's getting to the point where we need to put our minds to rest about the house issue next year. I don't why recently but I've lost alot of inspiration to do things like Youtube and the blog abit. It's down to tiredness, its amazing how tiredness can put you off alot of things. I'm trying to fight it but ever since I started GCSEs I've been working so hard and not really had a proper break. Yesterday the fencing team had photos. I decided to join in but thought I wasn't going to make it because of a practical for Organic Chemistry. It was nice seeing the team again but after two months of not playing it was alittle awkward. I've been battling with health, work and also personal problems for awhile now and its hard to juggle everything.
Also last week I got upset with Manticore. I started a cosplay group for CLAMP and have posted alot to try to give people ideas about cosplay and enable the members to feel comfortable. But so far it has been quite good but alot of people aren't posting much. One member asked if they could post photos on the group page which got me worried because I was thinking maybe people thought only the admins could post but the truth is everyone can post what they like. Anyway, Manticore posted on my wall one evening saying to me that I was copying him with his group Roundup and that basically I needed to curb my enthusiasm. Usually as a person, I keep it to myself because I don't like being rude and hurting people's feelings. But I thought Manticore was being rude and little bit up himself to post that on my wall. People seem to think that because I'm easygoing or nice that I just take crap.
Why did I get so upset by it? People lately have been getting quicker to me. Possibly because I'm no longer patient with people like I used to be. But seriously. If Manticore says one more snide comment or post I will not put up with it. Curb the enthusiasm? Look who's talking. Every bloody day its Final Fantasy project this, or my life is going down the drain this. Such a drama queen. The nerve of some people. I'm my own boss, nobody has the right to command me as though I'm a pawn on a chessboard.
And tonight everyone is busy yet again, either with Love, parties or seeing other friends. I will get through this. And when I do, I hope I get alittle more stronger.
The work these days has been quite harrowing. I'm stuck on a tutorial essay that makes stuff all sense. But some good news, I have found some houses to view for next week. I really do hope we find a house next week it's getting to the point where we need to put our minds to rest about the house issue next year. I don't why recently but I've lost alot of inspiration to do things like Youtube and the blog abit. It's down to tiredness, its amazing how tiredness can put you off alot of things. I'm trying to fight it but ever since I started GCSEs I've been working so hard and not really had a proper break. Yesterday the fencing team had photos. I decided to join in but thought I wasn't going to make it because of a practical for Organic Chemistry. It was nice seeing the team again but after two months of not playing it was alittle awkward. I've been battling with health, work and also personal problems for awhile now and its hard to juggle everything.
Also last week I got upset with Manticore. I started a cosplay group for CLAMP and have posted alot to try to give people ideas about cosplay and enable the members to feel comfortable. But so far it has been quite good but alot of people aren't posting much. One member asked if they could post photos on the group page which got me worried because I was thinking maybe people thought only the admins could post but the truth is everyone can post what they like. Anyway, Manticore posted on my wall one evening saying to me that I was copying him with his group Roundup and that basically I needed to curb my enthusiasm. Usually as a person, I keep it to myself because I don't like being rude and hurting people's feelings. But I thought Manticore was being rude and little bit up himself to post that on my wall. People seem to think that because I'm easygoing or nice that I just take crap.
Why did I get so upset by it? People lately have been getting quicker to me. Possibly because I'm no longer patient with people like I used to be. But seriously. If Manticore says one more snide comment or post I will not put up with it. Curb the enthusiasm? Look who's talking. Every bloody day its Final Fantasy project this, or my life is going down the drain this. Such a drama queen. The nerve of some people. I'm my own boss, nobody has the right to command me as though I'm a pawn on a chessboard.
And tonight everyone is busy yet again, either with Love, parties or seeing other friends. I will get through this. And when I do, I hope I get alittle more stronger.
Tuesday, 28 February 2012
Diary Entry # 5~ My Destiny is to Live in a Cardboard Box
Dear Diary, (that shouldn't be posted on the internet)
sorry I haven't written in awhile. This is usally considered a good thing because it means I have been busy doing other things. Its nearly the end of February which is always a good thing for a month to end when it has dragged for awhile. Alot has happened recently, as well as receiving alot of packages I ordered such as the Cloud Limited Edition PS3 and a Naruto volume 53 from my wonderful sister. I cut out the rest of my craft foam for my cosplay armour for Vaan. All I have left to do is the fingers on the gloves. I also finally got to play Final Fantasy XIII-2 when I visited my family 2 weeks ago, and I got to say it is amazing.
Not many people in RoundUp like XIII-2 but I seriously do not care if Kaerith doesnt like it either. At the end of the day, I love it, its a game for me to enjoy. I love the time-travelling, the moogle, the exploration, the cinematic action sequences, the graphics, the battles, how monsters can join the party everything. My brother criticised that the game is too easy but after XIII being impossible sometimes to beat the boss and tedious this is a great improvement.
After that weekend I returned to Uni and the same stuff continued. Work, lectures, coursework, assignments and goodness me Monday was a horrible day for me. As well as being cold I had no sleep that night stressing about work, travelling, cosplay and other things, one of which being houses. That day I got back to Uni, went to Kaerith's to discuss about the housing situation for next year and like a lightbulb went fast to sleep whilse she played Metal Gear Solid because I virtually had no sleep. I then woke up disoritenated four hours later ready to go see a house with my friends kaerith and Madnut. The houses were being run by an estate agent called Saxons and our realtor was called Rufians. Rufians came across to me as a salesperson with a forceful pitch. Madnut came with all these questions beforehand ready and prepared which made Rufians a formidable opponent in the art of conning. The house was beautiful, but Rufians wanted us to sign the contract there and then, for us this was ringing alarm bells.
You never sign a contract until you read what you've been given. We told Rufians after 2 hours, that we'll sleep on it and we're not signing anything. However after a talk with parents, expert advice from Madnut's mummy and a look on the internet about people's experiences with Saxons being quite frankly sh**. We decided to look for another house. During this time, my flat mate Hubert was becoming very anti-social. Hubert got his electric guiatir recently and an amplifier, which means he hardly knocks on my door anymore to say hello, let alone check I'm still alive. It's okay though I guess, there's still Sarah and Steph but I hope he's okay. I miss the early days where we chatted in the kitchen about life and lectures, but thats life. People find more better things to do, like playing the guitair. Time passed as usual, until last Friday where we saw House #2. Shown to us by a lovely private landlord called Mary. She was ever so sweet and not pushy like Rufians. And the house had a homely feel. The only problem was it wasn't as big as the Saxons one and making the final decision straight away feels reckless, like not considering everything, so we told Mary we'll sleep on it and thank goodness for that, she didn't pester us to reconsider like Rufians. That Saturday, Kaerith and I were planning to go to HyperJapan and on Friday night, I went to bed early at 1am (no that's not early for some people but considering I fell asleep for four at 4:30pm, this is quite an achievement) until my phone beeped. I was very lucky I had gotten a new phone, being a Blackberry. My old phone had very short battery life and was atrocious in texting and at that moment Kaerith had some problems.
It seemed strange at first, I thought it was alittle joke but I realized not long after that it wasn't and so Kaerith came to stay the night so we sort out the problem at hand. Poor Kaerith, she really has been through alot lately, as well as worrying about the house among other things and work, she's been stressing out abit too much. I really do believe as students and friends, we're the only people who can look out for one another in times of need. Helping Kaerith resulted in 1 hour sleep, meaning HyperJapan was a very tired and surreal blur of hyperactivity. Cosplaying Sora went well, apart from a stupid button coming off and not having the right boots. Kaerith cosplayed Aerith Kingdom Hearts II version and we got alot of photo requests from people, although how many of them we will ever see is another question altogether.
I enjoyed HyperJapan, just next time I want to have more sleep for it. I enjoyed trying out new video games coming out, such as Naruto Generations, Soul Calibur and also drinking the free Yakult that was on offer. Meeting from the RoundUp was lovely and also abit crazy, Manticore molested Kaerith right in front of me. Usually a female would scream if her breasts were grabbed there and then but Kaerith is not your average female... Manticore also tried to rape me with a sword, however I managed to block his attack wigth my keyblade and a battle ensued. Bless Manticore, he won a prize on the masquerade I think and deserved it.
One thing I didn't like cosplaying Sora that day was the baggy trousers, every single time I walked quickly, my trousers felt like they would give way, how on earth did I lose weight with a junk diet at Uni. Surely eating Aero chocolate bars makes you put on weight O.o And also I got a very ugly photo taken of myself by a professional photograph team known as Cosplay Portrait, never again, Kaerith said I looked 40 in the photo. Never again.
Sunday was spent being lazy and getting rest as well as attempting to watch Horror films with Hubert, Sarah and Steph. Hubert was being very annoying, didn't want to watch 30 Days of Night or One Missed Call. In the end we watched Anti-Christ. Which wasn't much of a horror but just explicit disgustingness which I'm not going to mention here because why should I want to make other people feel like clutching to their groins.
Monday, 27th February. We decided to go for House #2, Mary told us we lost the house by about 1 minute.
You can imagine how annoyed and frustated we were to find we lost the house by a futile one minute. Nevertheless we picked ourselves up again and began searching. House #3 was a fail yesterday due to the realtor losing the keys. So today fingers crossed it goes well. Kaerith was at first very depressed but now she's being positive but perhaps not in the best way. Being a Metal Gear Solid fan she loves how Snake goes around in a cardboard box on missions. Kaerith basically said our motto is 'My Destiny is to live in a Cardboard Box' because basically we're never going to find a house and have to live in something like a bin, box or treehouse which was my suggestion. Oh the giggles and LOLs of imagining living in a cardboard box.
So yes diary, if it all does go belly-side up. My next diary entries should be written from a cardboard box.
Chow
TokyoDreamer9
sorry I haven't written in awhile. This is usally considered a good thing because it means I have been busy doing other things. Its nearly the end of February which is always a good thing for a month to end when it has dragged for awhile. Alot has happened recently, as well as receiving alot of packages I ordered such as the Cloud Limited Edition PS3 and a Naruto volume 53 from my wonderful sister. I cut out the rest of my craft foam for my cosplay armour for Vaan. All I have left to do is the fingers on the gloves. I also finally got to play Final Fantasy XIII-2 when I visited my family 2 weeks ago, and I got to say it is amazing.
Not many people in RoundUp like XIII-2 but I seriously do not care if Kaerith doesnt like it either. At the end of the day, I love it, its a game for me to enjoy. I love the time-travelling, the moogle, the exploration, the cinematic action sequences, the graphics, the battles, how monsters can join the party everything. My brother criticised that the game is too easy but after XIII being impossible sometimes to beat the boss and tedious this is a great improvement.
After that weekend I returned to Uni and the same stuff continued. Work, lectures, coursework, assignments and goodness me Monday was a horrible day for me. As well as being cold I had no sleep that night stressing about work, travelling, cosplay and other things, one of which being houses. That day I got back to Uni, went to Kaerith's to discuss about the housing situation for next year and like a lightbulb went fast to sleep whilse she played Metal Gear Solid because I virtually had no sleep. I then woke up disoritenated four hours later ready to go see a house with my friends kaerith and Madnut. The houses were being run by an estate agent called Saxons and our realtor was called Rufians. Rufians came across to me as a salesperson with a forceful pitch. Madnut came with all these questions beforehand ready and prepared which made Rufians a formidable opponent in the art of conning. The house was beautiful, but Rufians wanted us to sign the contract there and then, for us this was ringing alarm bells.
You never sign a contract until you read what you've been given. We told Rufians after 2 hours, that we'll sleep on it and we're not signing anything. However after a talk with parents, expert advice from Madnut's mummy and a look on the internet about people's experiences with Saxons being quite frankly sh**. We decided to look for another house. During this time, my flat mate Hubert was becoming very anti-social. Hubert got his electric guiatir recently and an amplifier, which means he hardly knocks on my door anymore to say hello, let alone check I'm still alive. It's okay though I guess, there's still Sarah and Steph but I hope he's okay. I miss the early days where we chatted in the kitchen about life and lectures, but thats life. People find more better things to do, like playing the guitair. Time passed as usual, until last Friday where we saw House #2. Shown to us by a lovely private landlord called Mary. She was ever so sweet and not pushy like Rufians. And the house had a homely feel. The only problem was it wasn't as big as the Saxons one and making the final decision straight away feels reckless, like not considering everything, so we told Mary we'll sleep on it and thank goodness for that, she didn't pester us to reconsider like Rufians. That Saturday, Kaerith and I were planning to go to HyperJapan and on Friday night, I went to bed early at 1am (no that's not early for some people but considering I fell asleep for four at 4:30pm, this is quite an achievement) until my phone beeped. I was very lucky I had gotten a new phone, being a Blackberry. My old phone had very short battery life and was atrocious in texting and at that moment Kaerith had some problems.
It seemed strange at first, I thought it was alittle joke but I realized not long after that it wasn't and so Kaerith came to stay the night so we sort out the problem at hand. Poor Kaerith, she really has been through alot lately, as well as worrying about the house among other things and work, she's been stressing out abit too much. I really do believe as students and friends, we're the only people who can look out for one another in times of need. Helping Kaerith resulted in 1 hour sleep, meaning HyperJapan was a very tired and surreal blur of hyperactivity. Cosplaying Sora went well, apart from a stupid button coming off and not having the right boots. Kaerith cosplayed Aerith Kingdom Hearts II version and we got alot of photo requests from people, although how many of them we will ever see is another question altogether.
I enjoyed HyperJapan, just next time I want to have more sleep for it. I enjoyed trying out new video games coming out, such as Naruto Generations, Soul Calibur and also drinking the free Yakult that was on offer. Meeting from the RoundUp was lovely and also abit crazy, Manticore molested Kaerith right in front of me. Usually a female would scream if her breasts were grabbed there and then but Kaerith is not your average female... Manticore also tried to rape me with a sword, however I managed to block his attack wigth my keyblade and a battle ensued. Bless Manticore, he won a prize on the masquerade I think and deserved it.
One thing I didn't like cosplaying Sora that day was the baggy trousers, every single time I walked quickly, my trousers felt like they would give way, how on earth did I lose weight with a junk diet at Uni. Surely eating Aero chocolate bars makes you put on weight O.o And also I got a very ugly photo taken of myself by a professional photograph team known as Cosplay Portrait, never again, Kaerith said I looked 40 in the photo. Never again.
Sunday was spent being lazy and getting rest as well as attempting to watch Horror films with Hubert, Sarah and Steph. Hubert was being very annoying, didn't want to watch 30 Days of Night or One Missed Call. In the end we watched Anti-Christ. Which wasn't much of a horror but just explicit disgustingness which I'm not going to mention here because why should I want to make other people feel like clutching to their groins.
Monday, 27th February. We decided to go for House #2, Mary told us we lost the house by about 1 minute.
You can imagine how annoyed and frustated we were to find we lost the house by a futile one minute. Nevertheless we picked ourselves up again and began searching. House #3 was a fail yesterday due to the realtor losing the keys. So today fingers crossed it goes well. Kaerith was at first very depressed but now she's being positive but perhaps not in the best way. Being a Metal Gear Solid fan she loves how Snake goes around in a cardboard box on missions. Kaerith basically said our motto is 'My Destiny is to live in a Cardboard Box' because basically we're never going to find a house and have to live in something like a bin, box or treehouse which was my suggestion. Oh the giggles and LOLs of imagining living in a cardboard box.
So yes diary, if it all does go belly-side up. My next diary entries should be written from a cardboard box.
Chow
TokyoDreamer9
Wednesday, 15 February 2012
Memory Euporia #1~ A chain mail sent by Vicki ^^
| Just discovered this email which I sent probably four years ago and goodness me it brings back memories. And wow, I'm glad to see I'm less violent now, I want to hit people with a baseball bat. Goodness me. My friend Vicki sent me a chain mail, in which you answer the questions and then forward the email to other people, friends to see what their response to the questions are. I thought about sharing this because it really is special, a memory from the past which I forgot until today. :)
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I'm such a fail, finally found Beyoncé on Twitter....
Today I found Beyoncé on Twitter and finally followed her which is terrible since I consider to be a fan of her and this is disgraceful not finding her twitter account sooner, accidently following the wrong one. It wasn't too much of a loss though because it looks like Beyoncé like J.K. Rowling doesn't appear to be much of a twitter-holic. Whilst Rihanna amuses me and puts a smile when I see her tweets, J.K. Rowling tweets that she's too busy to even consider tweeting ever and Beyoncé has never tweeted. O.o
Why bother getting one then, there really is no point in my opinion. Following a twitter account that doesn't tweet, or tweets once every 2 years. I guess some people just were not made for the site which really is a shame. Beyoncé however has shown love for Google+, posting some wonderful photos of her newborn baby. Never mind, it shall have to be Rihanna that makes my time on twitter worthwhile.
And finally, Queen B + Jay Z= An incredible Baby.
It's like superman finally decided to make a baby with wonderwoman and about time is what I say. T.T
Why bother getting one then, there really is no point in my opinion. Following a twitter account that doesn't tweet, or tweets once every 2 years. I guess some people just were not made for the site which really is a shame. Beyoncé however has shown love for Google+, posting some wonderful photos of her newborn baby. Never mind, it shall have to be Rihanna that makes my time on twitter worthwhile.
And finally, Queen B + Jay Z= An incredible Baby.
It's like superman finally decided to make a baby with wonderwoman and about time is what I say. T.T
Diary Entry #4~ Valentine's Day was very romantic in the sense of a killing spree
Dear Diary, (that shouldn't be posted on the internet)
it goes without saying that yesterday was perhaps the most successful Valentine's Day yet, even though nothing romantic happened, unless you count killing things on a PS2 game, making a C.V., being told by a tutor you have an oral presentation to start on viruses and bacteria then yes it was quite a good one. I watched Letters to Juliet, which was really good film, frustated me how the protagonist's fiancé, did not catch the hint that she wasn't happy with him continually running off to go see a wine auction, when he should be staying around because HELLO its their honeymoon. Valentine's day is about chocolate, had a chocolate and disney princess cake, so wow isn't that special.
However, even though yesterday was special. Monday was hard for me. Ironically being the 13th of February when I got depressed. I finally activated my facebook account. I had to activate it to contact some people for moving out with next year, getting plans sorted etc. But instead all that happened was I received bad news and drama happened. Drama happened on two groups, a friend who I was hoping would be moving out with us dropped out and money is being a hassle instead of a joy, as I am still looking for a job. I was so lucky to talk to my wonderful friend called Sarah. We talked the night away and Stephanie popped over and that's when Sarah kept saying Cake. And then we were like stuff it. It may be 12pm, midnight but we're going to the shops to get flour and we're going to make a cake.
Our cake was abit of a failure I got to say, as well as risking getting salmonella and Stephanie saying the eggs had gone bottoms up meaning even though the expiry date had passed on the box, physically they were okay because they weren't smelling and were not floating in the water. Our cake was very flat bless. More like a crepe. However, I was very proud of it. It was something Sarah, Steph and I made and it made us forget the problems and worries that were on our mind. And that's when that guy randomly came over. I recognised him from somewhere, and then it hit me, fencing. But why didn't he say anything, when he spoke he was cryptic. Talking in code, asked about salmonella but didn't even bother to say hello or how are you. It was kinda obvious he needed time with Steph, but felt major awkward waves.
I finished my C.V. yesterday with my friend Kaerith whilst she was playing Metal Gear Solid. Bless Kaerith, she's worried about the houses and gave me a lecture on Monday about being more organised after I overslept my promise to meet at the station. Getting a job is hard but I'm not giving up, somewhere in this town there just has to be a job, I cannot give up. Metal Gear Solid looks like so much fun, I wanted to play but I was getting so into my C.V. Kaerith wants to cosplay EVA some point, but there were some points that scared me, like the bit when Snake got caught by the enemy and that noise starts to indicate he had been seen. No matter how many times I heard it, it always scared me.
As well as job-hunting, the work is piling up and cosplay is becoming alittle bit of a chore. I'm going to have to say No to something, haven't decided what it is yet. Last night was very tired so for the first time went to bed early. 12pm. That is not technically early in some people's books but it's earlier than usual, which is 4am or 10am. So yes, early bed-time but I woke up 4am. O.o Honestly my body just can't make its mind up. This morning decided to do some more work and then I discovered it, something quite special. Rihanna's navy limited edition box. I hate it when I discover something like this late, it's still in stock but no way I can afford it at the moment, I'm low on money and even if I do get money, I have to think about deposit, food, travel costs etc for Uni life. It's so annoying, I wish I hit the jackpot already, its very frustating not having money. It's kind of funny how family at the beginning of the Uni term are like 'Don't worry, we'll pitch and help' and now .........
Some people call this independence, I call this a joke and a pitiful survival game. Independence is when you have a job, a house, a stable income and you call the shots, not the boss. I am not independent at all. I depend on student loans, grants. I depend on others, I'm depending on Uni for my future, and I've kiund of been let down by some of these sources. But alas, next year hopefully things will get better. I get very irritated when I can't buy the things I desire. If that RiRi limited edition navy box goes out of stock FUUUUUUUUU. Someone is going to be very cross. T.T
Finally the last things nagging on my mind. I'm worried about getting a job, the two places I found vacancies for, are Pizza Hut and Subway but the thing is I've never worked in a restuarant before. And Pizaa Hut sounded very demanding in terms of social interaction and politeness. And also I'm still annoyed with some people. Actually quite a few people, I can't say who they are but I know who they are. I feel they've let me down and it sucks because I've been there for them. This February has been a peculiar month, a mixed bag, I can't wait for the months to zoom by, I certainly feel like I'm ready to end this chapter of my life and began the next section. Adult-life.
TokyoDreamer9
it goes without saying that yesterday was perhaps the most successful Valentine's Day yet, even though nothing romantic happened, unless you count killing things on a PS2 game, making a C.V., being told by a tutor you have an oral presentation to start on viruses and bacteria then yes it was quite a good one. I watched Letters to Juliet, which was really good film, frustated me how the protagonist's fiancé, did not catch the hint that she wasn't happy with him continually running off to go see a wine auction, when he should be staying around because HELLO its their honeymoon. Valentine's day is about chocolate, had a chocolate and disney princess cake, so wow isn't that special.
However, even though yesterday was special. Monday was hard for me. Ironically being the 13th of February when I got depressed. I finally activated my facebook account. I had to activate it to contact some people for moving out with next year, getting plans sorted etc. But instead all that happened was I received bad news and drama happened. Drama happened on two groups, a friend who I was hoping would be moving out with us dropped out and money is being a hassle instead of a joy, as I am still looking for a job. I was so lucky to talk to my wonderful friend called Sarah. We talked the night away and Stephanie popped over and that's when Sarah kept saying Cake. And then we were like stuff it. It may be 12pm, midnight but we're going to the shops to get flour and we're going to make a cake.
Our cake was abit of a failure I got to say, as well as risking getting salmonella and Stephanie saying the eggs had gone bottoms up meaning even though the expiry date had passed on the box, physically they were okay because they weren't smelling and were not floating in the water. Our cake was very flat bless. More like a crepe. However, I was very proud of it. It was something Sarah, Steph and I made and it made us forget the problems and worries that were on our mind. And that's when that guy randomly came over. I recognised him from somewhere, and then it hit me, fencing. But why didn't he say anything, when he spoke he was cryptic. Talking in code, asked about salmonella but didn't even bother to say hello or how are you. It was kinda obvious he needed time with Steph, but felt major awkward waves.
I finished my C.V. yesterday with my friend Kaerith whilst she was playing Metal Gear Solid. Bless Kaerith, she's worried about the houses and gave me a lecture on Monday about being more organised after I overslept my promise to meet at the station. Getting a job is hard but I'm not giving up, somewhere in this town there just has to be a job, I cannot give up. Metal Gear Solid looks like so much fun, I wanted to play but I was getting so into my C.V. Kaerith wants to cosplay EVA some point, but there were some points that scared me, like the bit when Snake got caught by the enemy and that noise starts to indicate he had been seen. No matter how many times I heard it, it always scared me.
As well as job-hunting, the work is piling up and cosplay is becoming alittle bit of a chore. I'm going to have to say No to something, haven't decided what it is yet. Last night was very tired so for the first time went to bed early. 12pm. That is not technically early in some people's books but it's earlier than usual, which is 4am or 10am. So yes, early bed-time but I woke up 4am. O.o Honestly my body just can't make its mind up. This morning decided to do some more work and then I discovered it, something quite special. Rihanna's navy limited edition box. I hate it when I discover something like this late, it's still in stock but no way I can afford it at the moment, I'm low on money and even if I do get money, I have to think about deposit, food, travel costs etc for Uni life. It's so annoying, I wish I hit the jackpot already, its very frustating not having money. It's kind of funny how family at the beginning of the Uni term are like 'Don't worry, we'll pitch and help' and now .........
Some people call this independence, I call this a joke and a pitiful survival game. Independence is when you have a job, a house, a stable income and you call the shots, not the boss. I am not independent at all. I depend on student loans, grants. I depend on others, I'm depending on Uni for my future, and I've kiund of been let down by some of these sources. But alas, next year hopefully things will get better. I get very irritated when I can't buy the things I desire. If that RiRi limited edition navy box goes out of stock FUUUUUUUUU. Someone is going to be very cross. T.T
Finally the last things nagging on my mind. I'm worried about getting a job, the two places I found vacancies for, are Pizza Hut and Subway but the thing is I've never worked in a restuarant before. And Pizaa Hut sounded very demanding in terms of social interaction and politeness. And also I'm still annoyed with some people. Actually quite a few people, I can't say who they are but I know who they are. I feel they've let me down and it sucks because I've been there for them. This February has been a peculiar month, a mixed bag, I can't wait for the months to zoom by, I certainly feel like I'm ready to end this chapter of my life and began the next section. Adult-life.
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