My Skin

This is a poem about my three going onto four years of experience with my skin. The poem is explicit and personal as it deals with something I have been trying to deal with for over three years that has affected my self-esteem and confidence. One way I have learnt to deal with it is writing recently. Hope you enjoy it or find it amusing and to anyone also going through eczema, urticaria or other skin conditions, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Peace~ A

My Skin

My skin

I scratch

I scratch hard

I never stop

Even when I start to bleed

I see the Doctor

Eczema they say

Eczema?! I say

Steroid cream they say

Okay I say

I scratch

I scratch hard

I never stop

Even with this cream on

I see the Doctor

No cure they say

More cream will do the trick!

I read the side effects

Thins the skin it say

Damage my skin it will

I don’t want this cream

Give me something else I say

More creams

Moisturise Motherfucker!

Is that all there is?

I itch

I scratch

I bleed more

I look in the mirror

Why has it not cracked?

Dark circles from insomnia

I look fucking ugly

Be optimistic they say

I’ll try I reply

But it spreads

To my legs

To my face

To my neck

To my torso

It won’t stop!

I go to Doctor

And beg on my knees

They give strange cream

This cream could give cancer

But I say fuck it

I need this relief from this Purgatory

I’m freed from the Eczema

But my body say no

You suppress the immune system?!

Big time payback bitch

They come to collect their interest

Every time I sweat

Or emotions overwhelm

Hives erupt

What in heaven’s above is this?

I go to Doctor

Urticaria they say

No cure they say

Cheer up they say

Buy more drugs

Suffer in silence

I fear my sweat

I quit fencing

I stop running

Anything and everything that makes me sweat

I touch my skin

It feels rough

Like it belongs to a snake

Not a teenage boy

You used to be my birthday suit

Now I want nothing more than to rip you off

Reincarnate into a new body

All you ever give me is Hell

Three fucking years it’s been

Eczema, Urticaria and Blood

The story of my skin