Diary Entry #12~ June hits home, Expo amazing but blues sink in

Dear Diary, (that shouldn't be posted on the internet)
I've had a rubbish past two days. Which is abit of a let down since MCM Expo was amazing, as well as having the Vaan Cosplay being a success on masquerade and seeing and making so many new friends at Expo and in the Roundup and meeting some people from CLAMP Cosplay Group. The down inevitably follows after. I'm alone in my room again, nobody cares to visit me or even invite me and my eczema is getting worse. I don't know why, I keep applying medication but it keeps getting worse. Lately I've been trying to do things, I started a Flickr account and posted some photography I did. I've also practiced dances for the Vocaloid group and I also wrote a chapter for my novel. However two people annoyed me, my mother and Kaerith. A few days ago, my mum phoned for a favor not to ask how I was. It was alittle irksome but I let it go, after I did the favor I asked for support for my next cosplays and said it would take place during Halloween. That word Halloween initiated the phone call the next day from my mum phoning to give me an obvious lecture about celebrating Halloween. Holy moly, first a phonecall asking for a favour and then a phonecall for a lecture and a silly one at that. You think she was asking if I was doing drugs or something. I hung up the phone and ignored the voicemail. Its gotten to the point in my life where I'm fed up of people's input on my life. There are some people who take Halloween seriously and do celebrate it but I'm not one of those people, I'm doing cosplay during a time people will be dressing up for Halloween. If the convention was in August, I would still be putting on a costume, its just a different time.

My mum doesn't know me obviously if she thinks I'm thinking of going into Satanism or something. She hasn't phoned back to apologize and don't expect her to. Finally Kaerith, my big problem with Kaerith is lately all she has been doing is whining and complaining and its really starting to get on my nerves. In town today it started off well, we talked happily on the bus and made our way into town to browse shops. Where it started to go wrong I suppose was when Kaerith found the top she wanted but not the colour she was looking for. I told her to ask a member of staff if they had any in stock. Her response to me was really patronizing and condescending because she had previously worked in a shop before and everything out on the shelf was what they had. There was nothing to lose but what frustrated me even more was how she went into one shop and left moments later. Things got ugly on the bus journey back when Kaerith stepped too far and started as usual insulting all my obsessions. This is a usual occurence with alot of my friends and I laugh it off but today I got irked because Kaerith's tone of voice got really scary and vicious. She first dissed how I was not into male programmes like wrestling but chick flicks. I then said to her why she was always being horrible lately and she responded that it was because I was horrible first by saying all her cosplays were of sluts, which were not my words exactly. All I said was she liked doing the characters that gained attention of photographers and that the reason she wanted to do Rikku was because another cosplayer did it better than her. By this point it was no longer joke but words trying to hurt each other, I also let on alittle what I had thought. The last thing Kaerith asked me was what I was doing over summer and I replied that how nice it was of her to ask me one question about me but why should I respond. The whole bus journey was spent in silence, Kaerith was not very long with her farewell, she got off the bus very quickly and today we were meant to have gone jogging.

I'm kind of fed up of people judging my tastes in music or film. Every time I say to Kaerith, I recommend this film, its met with skepticism or sarcasm as though its already bad because I like it. When I want to do something its instantly rejected sometimes. Whilst I'm sure if its someone else she would have listened. How come she's always nice to everyone else.
Whatever. Friends can sometimes be horrible.